| Anyone miss me? |
[10 Nov 2003|09:40pm] |
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I was just informed that if I did not update I would be removed, so that sucks. This is an update to see if I am missed or if I need to keep hiding. Let me know....
I hope Jul Stiles is happy now....
Love,
Leelee
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| Hello, again. :) |
[23 Sep 2003|05:53pm] |
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Why do I keep dying and coming back? I really don't know, but I do know that missed all of you terribly and I am sorry.
I've been really tired lately. But, I've also been better. I think I'm just getting used to being me. Like I know I'm me, but there are many times in our lives where we can find out who we truely are and what we're truely meant to do. It all depends on your state of mind and how you look at the world from your perspective. I need to navigate, communicate, and activate my personality and my life. I need to do more of the activities that I want to do, instead of living for everyone else all the time. I'm in a really curious mood, the kind where you just question everything and everyone and anything and anyone. It's so ironic. Maybe I should sleep or maybe I should go on a nice long walk.
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| I'm leaving Shane for Keri. :-* |
[07 Sep 2003|10:14pm] |
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I'm really tired tonight. I haven't been doing a lot lately and I haven't really been sleeping either. I think I'm a little stressed out but this break is supposed to be relaxing. I can barely enjoy anything anymore. Maybe I'm just an insomniac because of my constant worrying. I don't know.
Last night I went out clubbing with Julez. This might be why I'm so tired tonight, but I've been tired all the time lately. Anyway...I had a lot of fun with her. I hadn't seen her in a long time since she'd been on tour and I'd been working. But we always have a blast together. I think she drank a little too much though, and it wasn't dr. pepper either. :-0 I had my share as well and all I can say about that is ew, hangover. I really need to be getting to bed early tonight though.
P.S. Thank you Alyson for all the gorgeous icons!!! :-) I <3 you.
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[04 Sep 2003|07:39pm] |
I've changed my journal about a million times since last night. It looked really pretty when Rachael did it, but I just wanted to try something different because I'd had that layout and background for a while. I finally got my journal to suite me. Please let me know what you think.
I may get on aim later, or maybe I'll just lurk. :-/
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| short, crappy update. |
[28 Aug 2003|09:12pm] |
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I'm sorry I haven't been around here much lately or updated my journal for that matter, but I have been soooo busy. I had a great time with Keri in London, but I decided to come home because lets face it, there is no place like home. I'm totally lost with everything that has been going on, someone please inform me!
I doubt I was missed very much, but someone told me to update and I promised I would. :-* Even, if it is a short, crappy update.
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| Where I Needed to go. |
[21 Aug 2003|09:16pm] |
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Since Monday I have been in London with Keri. :-* It was a long plane ride, but well worth it. We went out looking at cute blokes. I have to say there are many more cute ones here in London, but then again, I'm used to the LA freaks, no offense. It's so beautiful here. Keri has had to work more than usual, but we've had some time together and I'm just enjoying my vacation. I really needed this. Even though I have been on a break lately, I haven't been relaxing. I've really caught up on my sleep and I feel much rested and peaceful. And I'm sorry about not updating more, but I didn't happen to bring my laptop, so I borrowed Keri's computer for a few minutes, shh!
Right now it looks as though I've been crying. I have not! I just happened to get something in my eye and it is irritating the hell out of me. I hope I'm missed in LA. And on a sad note, I think Shane died. :-/ So I guess this means I'm single now?
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[17 Aug 2003|10:05am] |
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Tomorrow I'm going to London to stay with Keri. We're going to look at cute blokes. I'm excited to go. The only time I travel anymore is when I'm working and when I'm on a "vacation" I just stay at home. This should be really fun. I really don't have much to say, except that I've been extremely busy lately. Sorry about the lack of updates.
I <3 Keri.
I <3 Michelle.
P.S. Thanks to Rachael I have the prettiest journal, ever. You really should check it out.
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[15 Aug 2003|03:28pm] |
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Well, I'm a little lost. :/ I don't know if Keri still wants me to come and stay with her because it sounds like she has plenty of friends over and I uh... haven't really talked to anyone lately.
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[12 Aug 2003|09:21pm] |
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( I'm feeling lyrical )
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[12 Aug 2003|12:09pm] |
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Tonight I think Viggo and I are going out to dinner. He seems really nice. I've been trying to get someone to go somewhere with me, but every seems really busy lately. Tomorrow I have to go in to read a script. They've already given me the part if I want it, but I'll have to read it first. I know what it's about, but I'm just not sure if I want to take the part yet. So, I'll be at work for a couple of days. Then, next week I'm going to London to stay with Keri. We'll have a lot of fun. She was talking about checking out the cute guys or something...hahaha. :P
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| Suddenly, I don't feel so insecure. |
[10 Aug 2003|03:25pm] |
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I'm going to have to start working Wednesday. I don't want to, don't make me. This was a pretty short break, but after a few days I'm going to London to visit Keri. The whole thing with her and Clay really makes me sad. I was talking to them last night and trying to cheer them both up, but I don't think I was helping too much.
I really miss my own boyfriend. Shane was supposed to be back by now, or so I thought. Where is he? Sob. :'( I tried calling him the other day, but he didn't answer. I know he's really busy, but I will be too. I just wanted to talk to him. See how he was, what he was up to, tell him what I've been doing. nothing And that I'm going to London, so if he does get back he won't see me until I get back. Plus he said he had a surprise for me and I'm anxious to see what it is.
Oh, and I'm having Keri's love child. We're going to name it Marah Kristin-Kate Russell-Sobieski. I think or something like that. Haha. We were laughing at that and saying it sounded like Russian, what, no. That was the boy. Oh yes, we also had a boy's name picked out, but I forgot what it was. :/
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| Blue Moon. |
[08 Aug 2003|11:49pm] |
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I talked to Shane last night. We had a really good talk. We talked about everything and what a good time he was having, but that he missed me. He said he wishes I could have gone with him. I'm such a home body though. I'm not sure when I will start working again. And I'm doing fine, here. I think when I get around anyone too long, it's not good. It doesn't matter if it's my mom, my best friend, or my boyfriend. After being around someone for awhile I just get cranky or something. Is that weird? But then, when they leave, after being around for awhile, I miss them terribly. Maybe it's from having a strange childhood and moving around. I really don't know.
I think I've overdosed on pizza and junkfood. I feel so icky now. At least when I'm working I stay slim, I don't really have time to eat then. But, lately I've just been hanging out in the house all day. Eating and watching movies. I've really enjoyed it though. I hardly get the time to do this, so it seems fun to me. I must be like extremely independent because I love being alone sometimes. But, I am starting to get a little bored. I should get out.
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| This is to make my friend's page move. :) |
[05 Aug 2003|12:05am] |
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I put new icons in my journal. Well, actually I've had them for awhile and used them a little, but they're like new, heh. This entry is written out of boredom. No one is talking to me. Sob. Where did Heath, Keri, and Kate go? I don't know... :/
Cause~> Comments welcome. <~Support the cause.
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| Troubles are troublesome. |
[04 Aug 2003|09:44pm] |
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Anyway I've been really tired lately, but it's like I can't sleep. And when I do sleep I just crash, but not for more than a couple of hours. Then the rest of the time I guess I'm just staying awake by means of caffeine almost. Like I'm tired, but not sleepy, if you know what I mean. I'm almost like a walking zombie. BOO! Seriously, I don't know what is wrong with me. It might be all this stress I'm under. It's all about work, family, and Shane. No, there aren't really problems with Shane, except I don't get to see him very much. I feel so anxious when he doesn't call me and I don't want to call him because he might be busy and I don't really know his scheduale. It's like we live on two different planets or something. It really sucks. It's a good thing I have a little time off, but I'm not sure how long it's going to last.
I really miss Julia as well. She needs to get her ass back here! Seriously, when she gets home we're going to hang out, wheather she wants to or not. Haha, just kidding Jules. Gotta love her. She's great.
In other news.....I've been talking to Kate and Heath alot. They are so cute together. I've been giving each of them advice, probably not the best advice, but I'm friends with them, love them both, and I try. :/ So congrats to them on the new relationship.
Sorry about all the rambling.
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| Time to update. |
[02 Aug 2003|09:56pm] |
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I've had an awesome time with Shane, but now he's gone. *cries* I really really miss him already. I never thought I could be in love with someone so much, so fast. He's great and we had so much fun. I got a little sick the other day and so we couldn't do what he had planned, so he just stayed home with me and took care of me. I must've been a bitch, probably complaining about every little thing, as I do when I'm sick. But, he just stuck by me and made me soup and layed in bed with me. I don't know why he did it all, but he did and I'm thankful.
I don't just want to mope around the apartment thinking about him and missing him more. I need to see if any of my friends wants to go out and do something. I talked to Julia. I think she's going to be busy for awhile, and I don't know what the rest of my friends are doing. Hmmm....
I've been really busy lately. I don't know what I've been doing other than hanging out with Shane. Maybe he motivates me to get off my ass, haha. I cleaned, went out to eat, got over being sick, and what else have I done? Ah, just staying busy.
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| Everything is wonderful now. |
[29 Jul 2003|09:25pm] |
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Yesterday Shane came over in the morning. He made me breakfast in bed. He really went all out. He made pancakes, eggs, sausage, and biscuits. It was the best food I've ever tasted. We spent the whole day together. He had many surprises for me. I had a great time. He just makes me feel all bubbly and happy. It doesn't seem real, more like a dream. It's not a fairy tale, but damn close.
I love Shane. He's amazing. Intelligent, hilarious, nice, kind, fun, different, loving, honest, surpising, and cute. What more could a girl ask for? For the next three days I'm not leaving his side. We are going to make the most of our time together.
I'm not a girl to kiss and tell, but we had a sleepover last night. ;) And hopefully we will tonight, too.
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| I don't know what to do with myself. |
[27 Jul 2003|06:18pm] |
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Now that shooting the movie is finished, I don't know how I'm going to be spending my time. I'm a little confused and a little lonely. I've missed Shane so much lately. So, instead of him calling me (which he usually does), I called him. I called him on his cell phone late last night. I knew he would be up. I felt a little shy calling. Why do I always get that way when I'm calling someone? But anyway, he answered and we talked for about 10 minutes. It was a rather short conversation for us. He sounded a little busy and I asked if he was, but he said he wasn't. I don't know, maybe he just didn't want to talk to me. I'm so damn insecure when it comes to relationships.
I was talking to Julia on the phone about it last night after I got off the phone with Shane. She said that I was beautiful, smart, nice, funny, and a great actress and that I should not be insecure at all. Thank you Julia for being a great friend, supporting me, and listening to me bitch and complain.
I really do want need to talk to Shane about it all. Hopefully he'll call me tonight. And, everyone is saying or asking if we're a new couple, but we have been a couple for a little while now. Thank you very much.
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