Leelee

Anyone miss me?

2003-11-11T03:42:11Z

I was just informed that if I did not update I would be removed, so that sucks. This is an update to see if I am missed or if I need to keep hiding. Let me know....
I hope Jul Stiles is happy now....

Love,
Leelee

Hello, again. :)

2003-09-23T22:57:19Z

Why do I keep dying and coming back? I really don't know, but I do know that missed all of you terribly and I am sorry.

I've been really tired lately. But, I've also been better. I think I'm just getting used to being me. Like I know I'm me, but there are many times in our lives where we can find out who we truely are and what we're truely meant to do. It all depends on your state of mind and how you look at the world from your perspective. I need to navigate, communicate, and activate my personality and my life. I need to do more of the activities that I want to do, instead of living for everyone else all the time. I'm in a really curious mood, the kind where you just question everything and everyone and anything and anyone. It's so ironic. Maybe I should sleep or maybe I should go on a nice long walk.

I'm leaving Shane for Keri. :-*

2003-09-08T03:16:21Z

I'm really tired tonight. I haven't been doing a lot lately and I haven't really been sleeping either. I think I'm a little stressed out but this break is supposed to be relaxing. I can barely enjoy anything anymore. Maybe I'm just an insomniac because of my constant worrying. I don't know.

Last night I went out clubbing with Julez. This might be why I'm so tired tonight, but I've been tired all the time lately. Anyway...I had a lot of fun with her. I hadn't seen her in a long time since she'd been on tour and I'd been working. But we always have a blast together. I think she drank a little too much though, and it wasn't dr. pepper either. :-0 I had my share as well and all I can say about that is ew, hangover. I really need to be getting to bed early tonight though.

P.S. Thank you Alyson for all the gorgeous icons!!! :-) I <3 you.

Busy

2003-09-05T00:42:12Z

I've changed my journal about a million times since last night. It looked really pretty when Rachael did it, but I just wanted to try something different because I'd had that layout and background for a while. I finally got my journal to suite me. Please let me know what you think.

I may get on aim later, or maybe I'll just lurk. :-/

short, crappy update.

2003-08-29T02:18:01Z

I'm sorry I haven't been around here much lately or updated my journal for that matter, but I have been soooo busy. I had a great time with Keri in London, but I decided to come home because lets face it, there is no place like home. I'm totally lost with everything that has been going on, someone please inform me!

I doubt I was missed very much, but someone told me to update and I promised I would. :-* Even, if it is a short, crappy update.

Where I Needed to go.

2003-08-22T02:17:18Z

Since Monday I have been in London with Keri. :-* It was a long plane ride, but well worth it. We went out looking at cute blokes. I have to say there are many more cute ones here in London, but then again, I'm used to the LA freaks, no offense. It's so beautiful here. Keri has had to work more than usual, but we've had some time together and I'm just enjoying my vacation. I really needed this. Even though I have been on a break lately, I haven't been relaxing. I've really caught up on my sleep and I feel much rested and peaceful. And I'm sorry about not updating more, but I didn't happen to bring my laptop, so I borrowed Keri's computer for a few minutes, shh!

Right now it looks as though I've been crying. I have not! I just happened to get something in my eye and it is irritating the hell out of me. I hope I'm missed in LA. And on a sad note, I think Shane died. :-/ So I guess this means I'm single now?

leelee_sobieski @ 2003-08-17T10:05:00

2003-08-17T15:10:34Z

Tomorrow I'm going to London to stay with Keri. We're going to look at cute blokes. I'm excited to go. The only time I travel anymore is when I'm working and when I'm on a "vacation" I just stay at home. This should be really fun. I really don't have much to say, except that I've been extremely busy lately. Sorry about the lack of updates.

I <3 Keri.

I <3 Michelle.

P.S. Thanks to Rachael I have the prettiest journal, ever. You really should check it out.

Oh god.

2003-08-17T05:08:27Z

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2003-08-15T20:30:34Z

Well, I'm a little lost. :/ I don't know if Keri still wants me to come and stay with her because it sounds like she has plenty of friends over and I uh... haven't really talked to anyone lately.

leelee_sobieski @ 2003-08-12T21:21:00

2003-08-13T02:29:58Z

There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I've said a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away

Well expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're okay when I'm not around,
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try hard to make you smile,
To make us smile...

I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping or you're dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

I thought that the world had lost its sway
(It's so hard sometimes)
Then I fell in love with you
(Then came you)
And you took that away
(It's not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)

You take away the old, show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you
So while I'm on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I'll take the words you gave
And send them back to you

I only want to see
If you're okay when I?m not around,
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile,
To make us smile....

I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping or you're dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me...

Help me, oh help me.

2003-08-12T22:20:57Z

EvilJackInTheB0x: hey
JoyRideLeeLee: Hello?
EvilJackInTheB0x: i watch your movie, the glass house alot
JoyRideLeeLee: Well that's good I guess.
JoyRideLeeLee: Can I ask who you are?
EvilJackInTheB0x: uhh darriel
EvilJackInTheB0x: its not like you personally know me i just came across your deadjournal randomly
EvilJackInTheB0x: and yeah
JoyRideLeeLee: [You know I'm not the real Leelee right?]
EvilJackInTheB0x: oh your not?
JoyRideLeeLee: [no, it's role play, on Leelee's journal click the link that says "The truth breaks like the glass house"
EvilJackInTheB0x: ohhhh
EvilJackInTheB0x: well i dont get it, why are you doing this then
JoyRideLeeLee: [It's just for fun and roleplay purposes only.]
EvilJackInTheB0x: ohh
JoyRideLeeLee: Wouldn't it be pretty stupid if the real Leelee Sobieski had a journal named Leelee_Sobieski on the internet?
EvilJackInTheB0x: yeah haha
JoyRideLeeLee: And why would she be online in the middle of the day?
EvilJackInTheB0x: hahaha eyah
JoyRideLeeLee: kthxbye.

Can't even spell yeah correctly, how dumb of them. Anyway, I just thought that was interesting because it has never happened to me before.

leelee_sobieski @ 2003-08-12T12:09:00

2003-08-12T17:15:58Z

Tonight I think Viggo and I are going out to dinner. He seems really nice. I've been trying to get someone to go somewhere with me, but every seems really busy lately. Tomorrow I have to go in to read a script. They've already given me the part if I want it, but I'll have to read it first. I know what it's about, but I'm just not sure if I want to take the part yet. So, I'll be at work for a couple of days. Then, next week I'm going to London to stay with Keri. We'll have a lot of fun. She was talking about checking out the cute guys or something...hahaha. :P

((Tomorrow school starts, ugh. I'm kind of anxious to go, but I won't be on as much anymore. I'll miss all of you.))

Suddenly, I don't feel so insecure.

2003-08-10T20:38:09Z

I'm going to have to start working Wednesday. I don't want to, don't make me. This was a pretty short break, but after a few days I'm going to London to visit Keri. The whole thing with her and Clay really makes me sad. I was talking to them last night and trying to cheer them both up, but I don't think I was helping too much.

I really miss my own boyfriend. Shane was supposed to be back by now, or so I thought. Where is he? Sob. :'( I tried calling him the other day, but he didn't answer. I know he's really busy, but I will be too. I just wanted to talk to him. See how he was, what he was up to, tell him what I've been doing. nothing And that I'm going to London, so if he does get back he won't see me until I get back. Plus he said he had a surprise for me and I'm anxious to see what it is.

Oh, and I'm having Keri's love child. We're going to name it Marah Kristin-Kate Russell-Sobieski. I think or something like that. Haha. We were laughing at that and saying it sounded like Russian, what, no. That was the boy. Oh yes, we also had a boy's name picked out, but I forgot what it was. :/

Blue Moon.

2003-08-09T05:01:16Z

I talked to Shane last night. We had a really good talk. We talked about everything and what a good time he was having, but that he missed me. He said he wishes I could have gone with him. I'm such a home body though. I'm not sure when I will start working again. And I'm doing fine, here. I think when I get around anyone too long, it's not good. It doesn't matter if it's my mom, my best friend, or my boyfriend. After being around someone for awhile I just get cranky or something. Is that weird? But then, when they leave, after being around for awhile, I miss them terribly. Maybe it's from having a strange childhood and moving around. I really don't know.

I think I've overdosed on pizza and junkfood. I feel so icky now. At least when I'm working I stay slim, I don't really have time to eat then. But, lately I've just been hanging out in the house all day. Eating and watching movies. I've really enjoyed it though. I hardly get the time to do this, so it seems fun to me. I must be like extremely independent because I love being alone sometimes. But, I am starting to get a little bored. I should get out.

This is to make my friend's page move. :)

2003-08-05T05:10:02Z

I put new icons in my journal. Well, actually I've had them for awhile and used them a little, but they're like new, heh. This entry is written out of boredom. No one is talking to me. Sob. Where did Heath, Keri, and Kate go? I don't know... :/

Cause~> Comments welcome. <~Support the cause.

Troubles are troublesome.

2003-08-05T02:56:16Z

Anyway I've been really tired lately, but it's like I can't sleep. And when I do sleep I just crash, but not for more than a couple of hours. Then the rest of the time I guess I'm just staying awake by means of caffeine almost. Like I'm tired, but not sleepy, if you know what I mean. I'm almost like a walking zombie. BOO! Seriously, I don't know what is wrong with me. It might be all this stress I'm under. It's all about work, family, and Shane. No, there aren't really problems with Shane, except I don't get to see him very much. I feel so anxious when he doesn't call me and I don't want to call him because he might be busy and I don't really know his scheduale. It's like we live on two different planets or something. It really sucks. It's a good thing I have a little time off, but I'm not sure how long it's going to last.

I really miss Julia as well. She needs to get her ass back here! Seriously, when she gets home we're going to hang out, wheather she wants to or not. Haha, just kidding Jules. Gotta love her. She's great.

In other news.....I've been talking to Kate and Heath alot. They are so cute together. I've been giving each of them advice, probably not the best advice, but I'm friends with them, love them both, and I try. :/ So congrats to them on the new relationship.

Sorry about all the rambling.

leelee_sobieski @ 2003-08-03T23:18:00

2003-08-04T04:18:58Z

Nobody likes me anymore. sobsobsob

Time to update.

2003-08-03T03:03:00Z

I've had an awesome time with Shane, but now he's gone. *cries* I really really miss him already. I never thought I could be in love with someone so much, so fast. He's great and we had so much fun. I got a little sick the other day and so we couldn't do what he had planned, so he just stayed home with me and took care of me. I must've been a bitch, probably complaining about every little thing, as I do when I'm sick. But, he just stuck by me and made me soup and layed in bed with me. I don't know why he did it all, but he did and I'm thankful.

I don't just want to mope around the apartment thinking about him and missing him more. I need to see if any of my friends wants to go out and do something. I talked to Julia. I think she's going to be busy for awhile, and I don't know what the rest of my friends are doing. Hmmm....

I've been really busy lately. I don't know what I've been doing other than hanging out with Shane. Maybe he motivates me to get off my ass, haha. I cleaned, went out to eat, got over being sick, and what else have I done? Ah, just staying busy.

Everything is wonderful now.

2003-07-30T02:34:20Z

Yesterday Shane came over in the morning. He made me breakfast in bed. He really went all out. He made pancakes, eggs, sausage, and biscuits. It was the best food I've ever tasted. We spent the whole day together. He had many surprises for me. I had a great time. He just makes me feel all bubbly and happy. It doesn't seem real, more like a dream. It's not a fairy tale, but damn close.

I love Shane. He's amazing. Intelligent, hilarious, nice, kind, fun, different, loving, honest, surpising, and cute. What more could a girl ask for? For the next three days I'm not leaving his side. We are going to make the most of our time together.

I'm not a girl to kiss and tell, but we had a sleepover last night. ;) And hopefully we will tonight, too.

I don't know what to do with myself.

2003-07-27T23:28:12Z

Now that shooting the movie is finished, I don't know how I'm going to be spending my time. I'm a little confused and a little lonely. I've missed Shane so much lately. So, instead of him calling me (which he usually does), I called him. I called him on his cell phone late last night. I knew he would be up. I felt a little shy calling. Why do I always get that way when I'm calling someone? But anyway, he answered and we talked for about 10 minutes. It was a rather short conversation for us. He sounded a little busy and I asked if he was, but he said he wasn't. I don't know, maybe he just didn't want to talk to me. I'm so damn insecure when it comes to relationships.

I was talking to Julia on the phone about it last night after I got off the phone with Shane. She said that I was beautiful, smart, nice, funny, and a great actress and that I should not be insecure at all. Thank you Julia for being a great friend, supporting me, and listening to me bitch and complain.

I really do ~~want~~ need to talk to Shane about it all. Hopefully he'll call me tonight. And, everyone is saying or asking if we're a new couple, but we have been a couple for a little while now. Thank you very much.

Time stands still...

2003-07-27T07:58:30Z

I can't sleep. I just kept tossing and turning. Does it make sense to be tired, but not sleepy? I've been thinking about everything that's happened in the past few days and everything that is up ahead. I think it's because I think too much. I'm worried about everyone, including myself. What's wrong with this picture? I can't stop listening to the All American Rejects, which isn't a bad thing. I really miss Shane. I want to see Julia too. At the moment Clay and Benji aren't even talking to me!!! There are people up, but everyone is quiet. Unlike myself. Oh well.

Smiles

2003-07-26T20:15:37Z

I'm back home. There is really no place quite like it. I had a great time in New York. But I actually missed working, my friends, and Shane, of course. :) I'm really glad to be home. The maid came a couple days ago, so my apartment is so nice and clean. I'm organized, but just not clean. I feel like hanging out with some of my friends. I've missed them so much!
Lots of love,
Leelee

leelee_sobieski @ 2003-07-17T11:48:00

2003-07-17T16:51:03Z

I'm in New York right now. I've had a good visit with my family, but I miss working, my friends, and my apartment. I'll be home in a couple of days. Sorry for the short entry.
Leelee

MIss you.

2003-07-13T03:58:58Z

I've decided to take a few days off and go home and see my family in New York. I've been meaning to do this forever and I really miss them. They miss me too. I'm lucky enough to be able to take a few days off from work while the rest of the crew is working on other things. And Shane, I'll miss you. I'll also miss all of my friends, you know who you are. ;)
Lots of love <3,
Leelee.

[I'm going out of town for about a week. I really don't want to and I'll miss all of you. Talk to you when I get back.]

Shane...

2003-07-11T04:26:45Z

I just got back from my date with Shane. *smiles* I was great. I had a lot of fun. He picked me up at my apartment at 6:30 and we went to the beach. The beach wasn't very crowded. We got there in time for a few hours of daylight. We played in the sand and water. We built sandcastles. I know it sounds childish, but it was a lot of fun! We walked across the beach. We watched the sunset. It was so gorgeous tonight. Then after it got dark, it was a clear night where you could see the stars really well. The stars just lit up the sky. It was beautiful. We just sat, laughed, and talked about everything...relationships, work, movies, music, our pasts, and just life in general.
I really like Shane...he's intelligent, nice, sweat, hilarious, fun, and handsome. I can't keep my mind off of him. This, after just one date. I already miss him. I hope I "won him over" as he said I could. I hope he feels the same way about me as I do about him. If he didn't I would be crushed. Why do I get myself into these situations with men? I've never had a terrible relationship, but I've never had a great one either.